December 2011
i'm so scared for monday
i don’t want to leave school, i don’t want to go back into treatment, and most of all i don’t want to gain weight.
dyingtobetiny asked: Good luck in residential love. You will do fine. I hope you can learn to lose yourself the way you are, because you are absolutely beautiful. Stay strong, and remember that you are so much better than this disease. you can do it <3
So its (99%) final: I'm going to residential this...
Anonymous asked: Why, what's your current weight? I hope you do well...wishing you good thoughts. <3
So i might be going to Laureate on the 12th
i don’t even know what to think. i’m so numb. i’m not ready for residential.
Anonymous asked: how's your mom going to eat lunch with yu at school? good luck btw!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So my treatment team gave my parents a list of...
If anyone knows anything about these places/has been to one/has anything to say at all please talk to me!
Oliver Pyratt Centers
Laureate
Avalon Hills
Eating Recovery Center
Remuda Ranch
Mercy Ministries
any feedback?
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Anonymous asked: How do you "secretly exercise"?
fading-to-paper-thin asked: hope everything goes well<3xxstaystrongbeautiful
shit went down at my appointments yesterday
if i typed out everything that happened, it’d probably take a couple hours and i’d bore you guys to tears. basically:
i am 94 pounds (after eating and drinking all day)
i don’t get to make my meals anymore (parents do, yipee)
i have to go eat lunch with my mom again
i can’t skate anymore
i can’t exercise at all
i will probably need to go back to PHP, and if i...
i know i need more treatment. but i can't get more...
i'm so dizzy
and i don’t know why
it’s just a little past 11:30, and i ate a 460 cal breakfast (bc i have to…) this morning. there’s no reason for me to be dizzy and lightheaded
i mean, obviously i’m not eating lunch but that’s just 1 meal a day. i’m still getting over 1,200 calories per day in food plus an extra 500 with ensure.
dear body, WHY ARE YOU MAKING ME SO...
curiouslycarmen asked: wow, i'm impressed with you. I like seeing you argue with your ED. I just want to offer my support of you being honest with your team. Be as honest with them as you are with us - thats what impresses me about you - your honesty. I know you said ED makes you You and that it makes you special but when I first started following you it was your love for skating that made you You and made you...
passades asked: Good luck. Please just remember that asking for help isn't being weak. It's beating your eating disorder. It's a sign that you're being strong.