going on a cruise this saturday :)
i’m so excited. it’s the one thing i’m looking forward to. i need to get away from all this shit, i need to feel normal. i need to not be the girl with the eating disorder, the girl in the hospital all the time. i need to go to the beach and tan and go swimming and have fun.
but i’m supposed to gain weight on the vacation. if i don’t gain i will be forced to either do maudsley or go to residential.
who gives a fuck, damn my nutritionist i’m going to have fun not stuff my face and gain weight. if anything i want to lose.
